Memories into scars

It's rare to see true Faces, damn, it's really few. It's painful to see the change, And makes it harder to engage. Aah, why do they do, I wonder, without a clue. The feeling to know now, what? Doubts whether ,this or that? U may say I should leave But I just try to believe It's just phase... Still it's not my first case..  Every time I know I am fooled My eyes pooled. But those days are really cold I rather stop, to unfold. How can they fake? Killing innocent trust in every take. How can this profit? With poisonous lies as spits. Wished to point out it every single time  But finally I was always said to Get OUT!!!

My pillows are the witness For my eyes wetness. Every day, it starts But doesn't tell me how to stop. My face always have a glow Trying to hide the low Happily none came to know And still , it is in a flow. My eyelashes drenched And mind wrenched, Looking out for a cheer To pull me out of the fears. The nights are a pain Sleepless with mouth shut Nothing to gain But making me more insane. My eyes look weak Hence, specs became my freak I started falling ill Woke up with thought to self- kill. My tears couldn't hold But I am trying to be bold It's been long time this way But none noticed to say. It really hurts I am sick But Want to convert To happy kick.  Will I live for that? Or my tears would be unread?

Today is a very special day for me....Means one of the day when hardwork , dedication , hell lot of patience and chunks of humiliation, finally brought the results. I got the recognition of my work from the person I wanted from. The 10th day of June month of the year 2021. The person who was my cause of writing , said to me today to keep it going. The most appreciated words which I was desperate for. Almost 1 yr ago started writing.... I was little heart broken then. I realised that writing was a ventilation to my pains and thoughts. The person had blogspot, seeing their posts ...I also felt like writing... One day to express my gratitude I shared one of the link of my post, they said, that not to share it again... It made me really sad again... I was in an agony....  Further I didn't feel like writing.... but I used to follow their post.My comments on their posts got deleted ,it was excruciating...but still ones a fan always a fan.... Atleast once a week I checked for a new post i...

I deadly laugh Not for maim jokes But to savage answers N sharpened talks If u see the smile on my face Believe it ,it's a dumb case. Come on man I will never be your fan, Keep away your lame jokes I am sharper and pierce who with fork.

Came to this world alone  Crowded by many unknown They helped me to step A lot of mini prep.   But I was alone From the beginning, I felt I stood for what I dealt I tried not to be a clown.   Life feels so unreal These days are unclear. Not even an inch to confide The fear of being aside.   Shutting behind myself inside screams a free elf. To open my eyes Only sense my cries.   Where am I Feeling life is a lie An inner who is shy Quietly moving to die.

Today I lost myself What I thought was existing Has just got expired. That presence Has now no essence Even though it's hard credence It pains  Left with nothing

Mohabbat ki raho main chalkr ham yun badnam hue. Is safar main mila dard se ham gumnam hue... Ye log ,mere chaahne valo ko meri naam se pukaar kar use dard adha karte hain ... Uske khushnubha lamhon main bhi mera naam jodkar use khafa karte hain... Mohabbat gunah hain... Mujhe ye majboor kehna padh raha hain... Mere hisse ka dard mere mehboob ko sehna padh raha hain.... Abh darthe hain ishaar karne se... Kise khabar hain ham kiski nigaaho main mujrim bane... Yeh log phir kabhi use mere naam se pukare aur use nazar jhukane pade.... Modified by- Shiddat