Memories into scars

Today is a very special day for me....Means one of the day when hardwork , dedication , hell lot of patience and chunks of humiliation, finally brought the results. I got the recognition of my work from the person I wanted from. The 10th day of June month of the year 2021. The person who was my cause of writing , said to me today to keep it going. The most appreciated words which I was desperate for. Almost 1 yr ago started writing.... I was little heart broken then. I realised that writing was a ventilation to my pains and thoughts. The person had blogspot, seeing their posts ...I also felt like writing... One day to express my gratitude I shared one of the link of my post, they said, that not to share it again... It made me really sad again... I was in an agony....  Further I didn't feel like writing.... but I used to follow their post.My comments on their posts got deleted ,it was excruciating...but still ones a fan always a fan.... Atleast once a week I checked for a new post i...

I deadly laugh Not for maim jokes But to savage answers N sharpened talks If u see the smile on my face Believe it ,it's a dumb case. Come on man I will never be your fan, Keep away your lame jokes I am sharper and pierce who with fork.

Came to this world alone  Crowded by many unknown They helped me to step A lot of mini prep.   But I was alone From the beginning, I felt I stood for what I dealt I tried not to be a clown.   Life feels so unreal These days are unclear. Not even an inch to confide The fear of being aside.   Shutting behind myself inside screams a free elf. To open my eyes Only sense my cries.   Where am I Feeling life is a lie An inner who is shy Quietly moving to die.

Today I lost myself What I thought was existing Has just got expired. That presence Has now no essence Even though it's hard credence It pains  Left with nothing

Mohabbat ki raho main chalkr ham yun badnam hue. Is safar main mila dard se ham gumnam hue... Ye log ,mere chaahne valo ko meri naam se pukaar kar use dard adha karte hain ... Uske khushnubha lamhon main bhi mera naam jodkar use khafa karte hain... Mohabbat gunah hain... Mujhe ye majboor kehna padh raha hain... Mere hisse ka dard mere mehboob ko sehna padh raha hain.... Abh darthe hain ishaar karne se... Kise khabar hain ham kiski nigaaho main mujrim bane... Yeh log phir kabhi use mere naam se pukare aur use nazar jhukane pade.... Modified by- Shiddat

When you hear my silence Just realise I am not listening you.

Seeing you is a treat to my eyes All the wind smells of different slice Lost in thoughts Body temperature rise to hots. Having you around, My world changes Which is not bound And desperate it to last ages. Talking to you , gives me chill And want it to last until We meet again to fill Our date's paybill...