Don't You Feel Messed Up?

Don't you feel messed up?

I completely do.

In a dilemma now, what and who....

At times I tell just shut up.

You know something

Shutting up is something I can't cling

Maybe I may not speak out

But every single time the inner me shouts.

Really I am blessed

I don't have problems as many 

But I am in a mess

Feeling dirty and uncanny.

I have dreams

Soar them to reality my conscience screams..

But I don't know why 

My body ends up in cry.

People around for small talks,

Feel good for a just a block

Why man... U don't need to show

It's not necessary just to know

But somewhere I wished

Whom I wanted to be cared by

Just at least slipped dm with a "Hi"

And say how much we missed.

Things have changed

I am but still engaged

People have left places 

But I still wish for that spaces

But now I want them to be decayed

And burnt forever 

With not even ashes be stayed.

As if we existed for never.

The rage in the fire pushed me

I know I will come out free

Never to kneel down to my wrong

But being amazing and strong 😉.